Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.
When we first decided to move to Honduras, I greatly struggled in explaining to people exactly what I meant when I said God had called us to do so. Many rationalized back to us saying, we were "going on an adventure," "living out our youth," "getting it out of our system," or (my favorite) "taking an extended vacation." Instead of following God, we were told we were following "our hearts," "our church," or "our dreams."
But no this was God, and He had called us.
I had said back then that its a little like falling in love...
God's "calling" is a funny thing to explain. I suppose it is similar to love in that way. Difficult for those to understand who have never been in love, but perfectly simple to those who have. Once you know you have been called, it is so blatantly obviously to you. Once you know, you know, and its impossible to orient your life around anything else. (my first ministry update)
And I've realized now, after over two years on the "mission field" (hate that term by the way, what does it even mean? where isn't the mission field?), I am realizing that God's calling is a lot like falling in love.
At first, you give up everything without a second thought to be with that person, because you see now that nothing else matters. Your family and friends think you're crazy, going too fast, and extremely impulsive. Your grandmother wishes you'd have fallen in love with someone more financially stable with a nice 401k or 403b or whatever combination of numbers and letters equal security and happiness. But it doesn't matter, you know its real.
Then you dive in, go steady, get married, and its harder than you expected. Its not the rosy, pretty picture you had painted for yourself. It is real, but that what makes it hard. There is real sacrifice, real pain, real struggles, and a real enemy.
But I go to sleep each night, next to my husband because I love him and I am committed to him. I couldn't imagine my life apart from him, and I never want to.
And that's why God's calling is a lot like falling in love.
I am just a simple person who is trying to follow God the best I can. For He has changed my life and my heart. He has shown me what it is to love and to serve. And I spend my days trying to imitate His example wherever I am.